I dedicate this one to you

We all have that one person who is in our past for a very clear reason, actually we may have a few people. One that comes to mind for me personally would be an ex boyfriend. That term "ex" just makes me want to hold my ears tight and scream. College and young adult life is full of heartbreaks and tons of walkers. I like to call the people who come into your life for a short period of time "walkers," this type of person could be someone you meet at a party, a short lived friend, or my favorite a uncommitted ex boyfriend. Take my word for it I've delt with quite a handful of "walkers" over the past year.

Here's the thing though, my one person from my past, the one that makes me want to scream isn't a quote on quote bad person. Good people sometimes can make bad choices, but do we hold it against them or find it in our heart to forgive them? We are all at the age where we are growing and learning from mistakes that will shape us and make us the person we want to be. But in order to get to that point don't you think there will be a few bumps along the way? Just because you have a map doesn't mean you wont get lost. This person just didn't know how to read directions very well, clearly.

More than once we have traveled down the path we once were on together, reminiscing on what good memories we shared. We've also butted heads multiple times disagreeing over what really went wrong. His reasoning; he wasn't ready, nor had the time for a relationship. And me on the defense; I was treated like a doormat, completely walked over. But we are both in the wrong, he should have appreciated a good thing when he had it, not after it was lost. And I should have stood up for myself when I was knocked down time and time again. Many would say that this person doesn't deserve to know what I think about him now, but this isn't for him its for me and it's for you. For the girl who still dwells on the past, and thinks about that one guy and what she did wrong. We've all been that girl  at one point, and its time we warn the younger girls so they don't go threw what you and I have.There was a reason that this relationship didn't work, who's to say that it wont work later on down the road. Or who's to say that this wont lead you into something greater. I am not bitter about what happened, I know not every relationship will work out. I know that because it didn't work that God has something so much greater planned for me, and im excited to see what he has in store.

You take what happened and you learn from it, grow from it. That is exactly what I did, I took all of that energy spent trying to make someone else happy, who mind you didn't want to be, and focused it all on myself. How can you fall in love with someone if you don't first love yourself. On this journey I have learned so much about myself, I've started to discover what I actually want in a person, what I need to work on when it comes to relationships, and most importantly I've learned im no where near ready to even get into a relationship. At the prime age of twenty one there is a endless amount of possibilities, the road is wide open for me to go wherever my heart desires, and because of that I'd like to personally thank that guy for breaking my heart. You have given me the push I needed to really discover who I am, and you have molded me into a better person. Ill also thank him on behalf of the guy that I do end up with. I know that he is going to love me because of what you have forced me to do, which is focus on myself. I wish you nothing but happiness so here's to you!

they say were too young to amount to anything else

**Random thought, I am obsessed with the new 5SOS song "She Looks So Perfect" and I currently have it on repeat while writing this blog so if I randomly start typing some strange song lyrics that's where it's coming from. 

Texas I have returned! It was such a loooooooooooooong flight (no im not exaggerating!) Our flight was delayed, then we had to sit behind literally twelve other planes inline for the runway, and once we finally got in the air it was another three hour nearly four hour flight. I spend the majority of the flight reading since the WiFi was down (rubbish I know.) I also spent the majority of the trip trying out new accents and completely annoyed Nicole with them as much as possible, it was quite funny, but to be fair most people in New York are not indeed from the city so everyone had accents I was just being like them. Anyways, so our trip was so exciting the days were long but I feel like the time flew right past us. We're jumping right back into our everyday lives tomorrow, going back to work and class. Should be amusing to see what we end up texting each other throughout the day tomorrow in regards to wishing we were back in NY.  (If there are any funny ones Ill screen shot them and post them hehe) While on this mini vacation I had a ton of realization that I may not be in the right state, I mean obliviously I'm open about my love of wanting to travel, but I feel like this trip just really set that wish into motion. I met so many people from different places all over the world and it really made me think, "what am I doing with MY life?" Like really where am I going, who am I meeting, and what places am I seeing by sitting in Texas? I want to learn a new language, and learn about different cultures, and try new foods that I've never heard of. This year I turn 22 and I've read many places that this will be the best year in your twenty's so I say BRING IT ON. Im ready for the adventures, the challenges, and all the bumps in the road that comes along with these changes. I'm so down for the change, for new things. I really want the excitement that comes along with it too! (If anyone has any ideas as to some new things or places I should do or see please send them my way.) 


Already this year is proving to be one for lots of great changes, and exciting experiences. Just a few days before my trip I was talking to a girl I work with saying how that once this trip was over I wouldn't have anything to look forward to, but boy was I wrong! For example this weekend I have plans to go to the Houston Museum of Natural Science, then for my little sisters tenth birthday my family is going camping, after that the rodeo will be coming up and hopefully going to see my girl sg again, then atx festival, a few trips to Austin here and there, SUMMER, my birthday, then on aug 22 I will be in the same room as HAROLD STYLES people when I go see the 1D concert where I will more than likely pass out and die in which the rest of the year wont even matter.... so. 


Well as if you couldn't tell already this post  random and really didn't make much since at all because I just sort of wrote random things here and there, IM TIRED PEOPLE. I just got off of being on a plane for over five hours. With that I think I will finally go to sleep. 


Oh I will leave you with some lyrics, 

if you don't swim, you'll drown.  

Airport madness

Hello there, so I'm finally at the airport waiting to board my flight back home to Texas. I was going to blog on my computer while I waited but the wifi here is messed up or something (I'm not really sure) sooo I'm writing this on my iPhone. Which isn't the BEST way of blogging so bare with me here! I know that I wanted to write more while I was on my trip but we were seriously so incredible busy that it was nearly impossible to do such a thing. When I return home I'm hoping to get right back in my grove and catch you guys up to speed with everything that happened. 

Just a quick side note, I did get a tattoo. & yes I will do a whole blog post just about the process of that whole ordeal later.

Other than that I will leave you guessing about the rest of the trip. Until I reach my next wifi spot xx. 

NYC; night4 day3

Hey little darlings, I've been so busy these past couple of days that I haven't really blogged just due to lack of sleep, once we make it back to our hotel room I'm always just so exhausted. Today was no exception either, SUPER BUSY, and tons of walking. Just a short little summary of the day; we spent the most part of our afternoon at the National American History museum! It was such a fun place, this is where they shot all the Night at the Museum movies so it was cool getting to see it all in person. There were endless amounts of cool exhibits and crowds of people. We did some shopping on the upper west side afterwards, then made our way back to midtown. In the cab ride back we decided to go to the Discovery museum in Times Square where we selected the Body Worlds Pulse exhibit, (If you don't know what that is look it up, trust me) it was incredible and I believe they had it in Houston at one time. Our night was a fantastic one, we had third row tickets to see Chicago on Broadway. We were directly in the center, and felt like we were right in the action!! Dinner finished off our day at Planet Hollywood, where we had the BEST waitior ever. Overall today was another great day in the city!! 

NYC; day2 night3

Today's lunch choice was Justin TImberlake's restaurant, 

Southern Hospitality. JT was in town for a show at MSG so we thought 

it was only fitting to stop in for a bite, in hopes to see him.

Spent the majority of out afternoon roaming the halls of the 

New York Library & Museum. Such an amazing building

 filled with beautiful ceilings and tons of great books. 

Tonight's show was at the Broadway Comedy Club, 

such a good laugh! Wish I would have gotten a picture 

of all the acts, they were all so funny!

Dinner at Juniors was delicious, 

mmm and that raspberry cheesecake to die for!

NYC; day1 night2

My oh my, New York has my heart. Today's day was filled with lots of walking. (duh) tons of laughs, and a bunch of layers! The weather today was absolutely perfect, a high of around 47 and a sky full of sunshine! We woke around 10:30ish to start getting ready for the day. By the time we showered, did our makeup/ hair and tried on three different outfits each it was nearly time for lunch. We didn't have to venture far from our hotel because of our location there are literally restaurants and cafes everywhere you look. So Shake Shack it was, we enjoyed a nice lunch of a hot dog, burger, and fries topped off with their special sauce! Mmm YUM! After lunch Nicole was on a mission to find a coat and H&M was only a few blocks down. After doing some browsing three stories worth that is, we walked down a little farther to FOREVER XXI and oh my stars that place was haven! So many corals and spring clothes I wanted to just blow all my money then and there! After we did some successful shopping we decided to roam a bit. Of course we went to Times Square where we took way too many toresty pictures, and had to shove a countless amount of ticket guys away. We spend so much time walking in Central Park and didn't cover even a forth of the park. You could spend days in there, literally. Bloomingdale's was next on our stop, I found myself channeling my inner Blair Waldorf, while Nicole was stressing over which Chanel sunglasses to purchase. Yes this is our life, and no were not going to apologize for how awesome we are. Moving swiftly on, we found ourselves gravitating towards the nearest Starbucks to clench our thirst, where we took a much needed time out for a while. Nap time was next for me, while Nicole chose to watch a few episodes of FRIENDS. 

A friend of mine took a trip to New York over the summer and suggested tonight's restaurant choice, The Jekyll and Hyde Club. We enjoyed the theatrics of the servers and workers, while grubbing on some chicken fried chicken and mashed potatoes. The temperature started to drop and wind pick up, so we quickly made our way to Sephora, then Urban Outfitters. Our final stop for the night was a three story Barnes and Noble (man did I think forever was heaven, oh I was mistaken) we stopped in their cafe to eat our first cheese cake of the tip, and just sit and talk. Now back in our hotel room we are extremely tired and ready to relax!